Where's the snow?

I'm going backwards through time at the speed of light

I'm yours, you're mine

two satellites not alone

no, we're not alone

A freeze-frame of your eye in the strobelight

sweat dripping down from your brow

hold tight, don't let go

don't you let me go

And I never was smart with love

I let the bad ones in and the good ones go

but I'm gonna love you like I've never been hurt before

I'm gonna love you like I'm indestructible

Your love is ultra magnetic and it's taking over

this is hardcore

and I'm indestructible

Hands up in the air like we don't care

we're shooting deep into space

and the lasers split the dark

cut right through the dark

It's just us we ignore the crowd dancing

fall to the floor

beats in my heart

put your hands on my heart

Sometimes things are different than you imagined. I admit I've been kinda blind when being with some people. And I've thought them to be better than they seem, apparently. Though, I guess people can say what they want and I just need to hold my head high and not care. It's sad when the person was someone you thought was kinda close to you though. But nonetheless I'm gonna get over it!

I've been trying to build up some confidence. I just can't find anything to concentrate on and actually bring myself to believe in myself I guess. But I'm slowly, step by step getting there. I've been fiddling around with photoshop and trying to learn it so my skills wouldn't be so one-sided.

A huge part of me also wants to get behind a camera and take photos. I think I've found another passion for myself and I've been playing around with the small cheap camera we have, but it's very limited. So If I ever do get a job, that's where my first paycheck is gonna go.

Going to England for Christmas! And meeting Aaron's family. And we all know asian families are huge. And since I'm from Estonia(Russia) they'll probably be curious about everything. So I hope I can work my shyness and use talking about how things are here to my advantage.

I'm also going to go see a hairdresser. For the first time... in my life. So far I've cut my own hair. I think it was some mentality like 'if I screw up, there's only me to blame'. Now, I'm trusting my hair to another person. That's a big thing for girls! Or it should be!

Today, me and Elise went to browse some shops in town. I found an adorable dress but sadly, they didn't have my size so I'm gonna try my luck in a different shop to see if they have my size. And Elise pointed out some 'adorable' shoes. I'm gonna go ahead and be girly here - they were BEAUTIFUL *SQUEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE*. It's not very often I find shoes I really really like.

And yes, I will keep on trying to post more!