Mistake?

It seems like I just don't know what I want. Because every choice I make seems to be a bad one.

I know it's been ages, but I miss what we had.

No going back

Today I started thinking about why I've done some things. But it was only after realising that the things I've done cannot be undone(or well - fixed). I've always been cautious so that I could go back to normal later, but after recent news, that's not a possibility. I cried again - wonder if that's why my head hurts in a weird way.

Still, I'm gonna face life with my head held high and full of hope and belief. Like I had yesterday. But something changed for me today - I need someone to support me because after today... I don't feel like myself anymore. It's like losing a piece of yourself forever.

2010

The last day of 2009 was fun. We all went to V's place(or well most of us) and we made a cookiecake that was initially planned for Max's birthday but since he bailed we made one to celebrate the last day of the year.

Otherwise it was a typical christmas. We shared presents and got drunk. Myffu was the one who made me a present and it was a World of Warcraft action figure o.o It was way too expensive D: But I really loved the gift. Thank you <3.

Then we played this weird new alias and after that we went to the small pond near V's home to look at the fireworks at 00:00. The view was really nice there - you could see a lot. Aarne and Kaarel were there too so got to wish them a happy new year too. Hadn't seen them for a while!

We got back and Ago set up the hookah. We had some really nice conversations and asked random/silly questions the 8-ball could answer. We had 4 people squished on the sofa trying to sleep. It was haaaard ;_; Only got a few hours of sleep and then decided to go home.

I thought I was prepared to face what was waiting for me, cause I knew some relatives came over. But when I stepped in the room... It was horrible o.o made up beds everywhere, literally. There was a family with 3 kids and a family with 2 kids, my parents, my brother and his friend, my aunt and my grandmother here, in this SMALL apartment. Lucky I got to walk over those sleeping bodies o.o

Was really scary and I can't have time to myself so I can't really tell what I feel about the new year yet. Am off for now...

Have a sexy new year everyone~